Wednesday, February 4, 2015

a wednesday night

I think I only do impulse blogging now. It's a very rare impulse, evidently.

This is what is currently happening:

Sleepy Petey. ♥

Life is okay, you know? I feel okay. I'm not really sad, but I'm not really happy. I still have no idea what I'm doing and what I'm going to do. I don't know what dreams to work toward. I don't even know what dreams I have.

I keep forgetting a lot of things, lately. It makes me nervous. I've also felt really at home with the county choir which I joined around this time last year. It's mostly senior citizens, so I think I truly must actually be an old lady.

I've been editing my NaNoWriMo novel from 2013 lately. I have no idea how I feel about it. I love reading it, but I don't think it's very good. I'd seek the thoughts of others, except it needs more work before I'd feel even slightly comfortable letting someone else read it.

The puppy has left me, alas. I need to go take a shower anyway. And pick the next book I'm going to read. (The most important task of all.)


  1. It's funny when dogs sleep somewhere you'd normally see a cat sleeping :)
    I know exactly how you feel, not knowing what you're doing or wanting to. But maybe we both find our perfect places in this world, at least I hope so :)

    1. It is! I love it. :) Pete has some very cat-like tendencies, and since that's what I truly want, I'm not complaining! Hehe.

      Oh, dear E, I do hope so too! This limbo is so very strange, but I feel certain we will find our way through. xxx

  2. The "perfect place" exists. It is not a ghost story or a fool's tale. I couldn't tell you where you might find it, or which place it is for you. All I can say is that it is real. And once you find it, all the sleepy days of wondering feel a million miles away and lifetimes ago.

    It doesn't matter which dreams you walk toward, dear one.
    It only matters that you

    Walk on.


    1. Ever, lovely! What an encouraging comment. I feel very hopeful, reading it. I will keep walking on, even when I don't want to. :)

      I hope all is well with you. xxx

    2. All is well. I'm sorry I didn't return sooner. It was all necessary.

      I'll be here now, and I'll be in touch. :)


    3. Oh, goodness---no worries! I haven't been around either. I'm glad all is well and that we are back in touch. :)

  3. If you don't pick me to read your edited NaNo novel I'm going to cry. (Not really. I mean. I'd love to read it. But no pressure.) I kept having panic attacks about going into a completely different career than the one I wanted. It's okay, though. I'm still going to be a bestselling author. Just do something to tide you over and fill the time until you achieve the one thing you daren't even believe you could achieve, it means so much to you... do you have a dream like that? Time to search the heart for answers. Face the fear. Easier said than done, I know it. x

    1. B!!!!!!!!! You're totally my first pick. You were there for me when I was writing it so it only seems right. :D

      I want to go back to school and be your student. Yes. That is my dream. But for real, I appreciate your wisdom. And I do believe you will be a bestselling author someday AND a kickass teacher, as well.

      I do need to sort through my dreams and figure out what is just me fishing in the air and what is something I really want to pursue. I always thought something like this would be clear and I wouldn't have to search for it. But so many things have gotten buried. That includes any fire I had to face my fears. *sigh*

      But anyhow. I was so happy to see you'd stopped by. I hope you have a fantabulous week ahead of you. <3

  4. So good to hear from you. My heart leaped when I saw that you had posted again! I hope you find some more direction in your life, but if you don't, you are welcome to come wander with me. I have no clue what I'm doing with my life, either.

    1. Ashley! That is so sweet. :) I was so delighted to see you had dropped in for a visit. I may have to take you up on that offer! Wandering with someone else sounds rather appealing. xx

  5. Hello Melee, hope you're doing fine! It's quite a while since you've been here the last time it seems ...

    I'm here because of your "Musical Absurdities" :O)
    I'm living in Europe and guess our musical tastes aren't very different. Maybe you can imagine how strange the taste is here - so far away from the home of folk songs (nowadays called Americana ...) ;-)
    I'd like to give you some hints which music you should check out:
    Townes van Zandt: "Highway Kind"
    Don Williams: "I'm Still Looking For You"
    Joshua Radin: "Angels"
    (or each album by him ...)
    Mickey Newbury's album "I Came To Hear The Music"
    almost every album by Rod McKuen

    If you like, just drop me a line at jikzteras [at] hotmail [dot] com

    Take care,

    1. Thank you for dropping by!! I'm doing very well, and I hope you are too. I'm sorry it took me so long to get back to you.

      Always delighted to meet a musical kindred spirit. I am listening to your musical recommendations, thank you very much for them! I may shoot you an email in the next few days. :)


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