it had been streaming past
leaving trails on our windows
but at the graveyard
the car slowed
and i saw clearly the airy tufts of ice
suspended
like dust motes shaken from the clouds
too soft, too frail
to make any difference
on the soggy ground
(not that anything would make a difference
to the occupants of the cemetery:
the ghosts and the ersatz flowers)
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leaving trails on our windows
but at the graveyard
the car slowed
and i saw clearly the airy tufts of ice
suspended
like dust motes shaken from the clouds
too soft, too frail
to make any difference
on the soggy ground
(not that anything would make a difference
to the occupants of the cemetery:
the ghosts and the ersatz flowers)
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Inspired by observations from the car window, I scribbled this poem on the back of a bulletin on our way home from church. It is still snowing slightly, but it's not leaving much effect. *sigh* Besides some flurries/light snow last Sunday, we've had no other snow this season.
I hate February. I've been distracted and depressed, and, to top it all off, nights haven't been good lately.
I lie down to sleep and my mind won't shut off. It jabbers on and on and I have to lay there and listen to it.
I don't know what the problem is. Actually, I haven't been taking as many walks, which is most likely a contributing factor (Easily rectified, too!) Thankfully, I've remembered what a soporific effect the music of Trespassers William has on me. So many nights this week I've turned to their album Different Stars when I can't stand lying awake in the darkness any longer; it soothes my mind and soon sends me into the streams leading to sleep.
(Anna-Lynne's voice just breaks my heart.)
Also, a lot of you know this already, but I caved and made a tumblr. The world of tumblr still makes me feel slightly like I'm being swallowed whole, but I've loved being closer to certain friends.
Well, that's all, I think. Sorry this post is rather down in the mouth. Winter always gets me in the end.
I hope your Februaries have been more satisfactory than mine.
Bittersweet and beautiful, some parts fragile and I loved it.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry you've been feeling a bit down these days, Melee. Bet your mind's restless too and I know it doesn't feel good. I just hope you'll be okay soon-er!
Love from the MoOn xx
Thank you very much, haze, for all your kind and lovely words. I do so appreciate and love you. ♥
DeleteSuch a beautiful poem. And I am sure there are happier times ahead for you as the spring progresses.
ReplyDeleteps. I instantly had to visit your tumblr and it is full of beautiful things (followed of course :))
xx
Thank you, dear. ♥ I hope so; I love the spring! The warmer months have a steadying effect.
DeleteOoh, yes! I'm so happy you have a tumblr! I am following you now. Yours is ever so lovely! xx
Lovely poem. I could picture it perfectly, grey and quiet.
ReplyDeleteI also find the chatter in my head too loud when I go to sleep...I either listen to music or read myself to sleep, which is very nice. (It sometimes takes a little longer but it has the desired effect!)
Thank you, Jenica. Grey and quiet is exactly the essence I was trying to capture. :)
DeleteOnce my light is turned off, I have trouble justifying turning it back on. Completely ridiculous! I think I shall try reading when music doesn't help.
Oh, I just don't turn the light off in the first place. Well, I use a lamp, which is dimmer and easier to fall asleep by.
DeleteAhh, okay. I've actually fallen asleep with the light on a couple times. Fully dressed. While reading in bed. :P I'd do it more often (though in pajamas) except for the fact the light would probably disturb my parents.
DeleteI love the poem! I could picture the scene you describe so clearly, not only with my visual imagination, but also with the emotions you've beautifully woven into its words :)
ReplyDeleteThe whole jabbering mind thing is something I've experienced a lot, too. I think the mind does that a lot, nothing out of the ordinary. Sometimes it's a matter of relaxing ourselves physically enough to calm the mind down too. Taking walks & stretching during the daytime help me as well...also trying not to do too much mentally stimulating work before bed, simply having a cup of chamomile tea or reading a relaxing book is great. And music, of course!
Your tumblr looks beautiful so far. Wishing you much restfulness and peacefulness, dearest Melee :) :) Oh, and thank you so much for the warm birthday wishes. I had a wonderful day.
Thank you so much, dearest Jade! You saying that made my heart sing. :)
DeleteMy brother complains of it quite frequently, but I haven't had it happen in a long time. I've been on my computer a lot before bed lately, which I've found is not very relaxing, so I'll have to get off earlier and read &c. I do like the sound of tea before bed!
Aww, thank you! I am so glad you had a wonderful birthday. xx
Please don't apologise, for you introduced me to this heart-stopping song, and for that I can't thank you enough. It goes stunningly with your poem. Actually, I really love everything about this post. Perhaps it's the melancholy feeling woven into your words, I don't know, I think it's all quite beautiful and ethereal. It captures a certain feeling that I am constantly in love with, I can't name the feeling, but this post is it.
ReplyDelete"the ghosts and the ersatz flowers" ♥
Oh, oh! You like the song?! That makes me extremely happy. The music of Trespassers William is something very dear to my heart.
DeleteI think I know the feeling you mean, as I love it too. I am so pleased that you see it in my writing. Thank you, B; you are always the loveliest encouragement to my heart. ♥
What a beautiful poem! I'm not quite sure how to describe it, but there's some sort of air about it I really love. And the song was really beautiful, it somehow reminds me of being under water. (Well, I'm actually afraid of swimming, but it makes me think of being under water and feeling calm...) I also listen to music to help me fall asleep; it's usually piano music, though. I really hope things will get better for you!
ReplyDeleteThank you, sweet Lumina. Oh, I know exactly the feeling you mean and think that is a very apt description! Piano music is also wonderful for bedtime. Aww, thank you, lovely girl. ♥
DeleteIt has snowed quite a lot here, it makes the winter somewhat more bearable I think, when everything is white and you can pretend that the world doesn't exist. Please find the light soon dearest... I think we all need to.
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Oh, yes! I think that's why I love snow so much. I am searching as we speak, dearest one. xx
DeleteP.S. I received your letter today, just when the unhappiness of the day had piled up into an unbearable mess; but your letter turned my sad tears to happy ones! You are so wonderful. ♥
Melee this is such a beautiful piece of poetry. And I had never heard of Trespassers William before but I found the song truly enchanting. I hope your nights improve, and your February does also.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, sweet girl. They are an amazing band; I'm glad you liked the song. :) Thank you - happily, my nights have been much better. It was really good to hear from you! xx
DeleteDearest, thank you for your comment. May we both find our doors.
ReplyDeleteAnd your world here is just riveting as always.
You are very welcome. Oh, yes! I hope we both find our doors before it all becomes unbearable.
DeleteThank you, sweet Diana.
So I think I may have had a dream last night that you updated your blog because I logged in here today thinking you had...
ReplyDeleteHope you are well & happy! <3
Thinking of you.
:) :)
Haha! That's funny. I had a dream like that the other night too and the person really had updated. Actually, I was planning last night on updating today. Now I'm not sure if it will happen or not. Though I would love to make your dream come true! ;)
DeleteI am, actually! I hope you are too. It warms my heart to know you're thinking of me. ♥
No matter how you end up feeling, your writing comes out very well. I enjoyed the poem! For me, February has been pretty tough - so I understand where you're coming from. The spring semester is notoriously evil, but it's still new and dizzy each time I go through it. I'm glad you're listening to music - songs always help. While it doesn't put me to sleep, I've been listening to a lot of electro jazz lately. It's been perking me up :)
ReplyDeleteThank you so much, Kim. February seems to be nasty to everyone. :| I hope this year's spring semester is breathtaking in a good way for you. Music is simply the best. Mm, jazz! Not sure I've ever listened to electro jazz, but I do love things with jazz influence. Probably my love of the past coming into play. :)
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