a wednesday night

I think I only do impulse blogging now. It's a very rare impulse, evidently.

This is what is currently happening:

Sleepy Petey. ♥

Life is okay, you know? I feel okay. I'm not really sad, but I'm not really happy. I still have no idea what I'm doing and what I'm going to do. I don't know what dreams to work toward. I don't even know what dreams I have.

I keep forgetting a lot of things, lately. It makes me nervous. I've also felt really at home with the county choir which I joined around this time last year. It's mostly senior citizens, so I think I truly must actually be an old lady.

I've been editing my NaNoWriMo novel from 2013 lately. I have no idea how I feel about it. I love reading it, but I don't think it's very good. I'd seek the thoughts of others, except it needs more work before I'd feel even slightly comfortable letting someone else read it.

The puppy has left me, alas. I need to go take a shower anyway. And pick the next book I'm going to read. (The most important task of all.)

la vie

I just posted on my music blog, so I thought I'd come over here and see what's going on.

Oh yeah. I haven't posted in over a year.

Hm.

I'm not even sure who's still around. I shall try and figure that out tomorrow so I can visit some of you.

What's been going on since I last posted? Er. I don't even know.

Some highlights:

• rediscovering my passion for musical theatre
• completing my first NaNoWriMo!!!
• taking an actual English class at a community college
• becoming even more happy and comfortable in my queerness (read: sapphic desires)
• joining my county's choir with my best friend (Most of the group is 50+ years old. It's amazing.)
• still feeling lost in life, but having less heavy sad spells
• and GETTING A PUPPY

That last one happened in the past month. He has been so much work, but so much fun.

His name's Pete and he's a cockapoo who is NOT AS INNOCENT AS HE LOOKS.

Okay, I'll go before I start complicating this simple update. I don't even know if anyone is around anymore. *waves hi anyway*

Well, it hasn't been quite 4 months...

Bonjour anyone who is still here!

I wanted to have some writing to share the next time I posted here, but all I have are a pile of passive aggressive poems. And my usual plethora of stories that are forever in the process of being written. (Lately I've been working on a short story. I was enchanted with it once, but now I feel I am doing a poor job writing it. But I shall prevail and finish. I hope.)

To be honest, I am trying not to feel like a complete failure. I don't even want to talk about the things I have failed at. Yet everyone (my parents, mainly) is still so supportive, and I'm sure at any moment they will realize they are wasting their time and love.

Oh, but I didn't want to head down that miry road...

Hm.

Some highlights since I last posted: I turned 20 (is that a highlight?); my sister got married; I saw a James McCartney gig; I got my very own Ellowyne Wilde (there's a long backstory for that); I've watched all of Community and Pushing Daisies and started a lot of other awesome TV series.

That's all I can think of. A highlight this week is that I'm going to go see Before Midnight in theaters. Eep! Before Sunrise and Before Sunset have been my favourite movies since I was 15. I may end up going to see it alone, which I've never done before, but there is little that could keep me away from seeing it.

I hope to be on blogger more this summer. Mostly to comment, as I'm not sure how much I'll be blogging here. Though I do plan on music blogging in the next week and also more after that, so you can visit my music blog if you like.

I hope you are all well, mes amies.